Early in the morning I went to the AT&T store at Union Square and acquired my fitbit alta and my Series 2 Apple Watch in Rose Gold. I had tried ordering it online twice, but they kept canceling the orders telling me I have to go to one of their stores to purchase and Apple Watch. I’ve been avoiding traveling into the city, especially Union Square because that’s where I’ve always gone with my love. It was very painful going to that area today. All I kept saying to myself, wordlessly, was “Are you with me, love? Are you sitting next to me? Are you walking with me?” It was very hard to stop myself from crying. It’s been two years since he died and every day doesn’t get easier. It gets harder.
I’m glad I survived the cruelty the Mexicans and other Latinos put me through for the last two years. A month after he died, they had the audacity to tell me he was still alive. And then they were involved in this cult of sorts trying to kill me and my family. Latinos, presumably Mexicans, Colombians, and Puerto Ricans, murdered my love. They even went so far as to go after my BFFs, Tara Jean and Deborah Marie.
These Latinos targeted me and my family out of jealousy and hatred. I don’t know why. I don’t even know any of them nor do I ever want to know any of them.
Anyway, I won the war. Zerna-Concepcion family won. The criminal Latinas and Latinos were defeated. Many were either killed or institutionalized. Exactly what they tried to do to me and my family.
I’m clear-headed and rational now. I know my Michael Jon died two years ago. I know the Obama Administration was involved in his execution. I will never forgive that President for killing the love of my life and then going after me and my family. I will never forgive you Barack Obama. Never. What you did was spiteful, ignorant, cruel, and damns your soul.
Anyway, as I was returning home, at the subway stairwell my love typically brought me to before going to his own subway stairwell, there was a musician playing an electronic piano. He was playing the orchestral version of Andy William’s “A Time for Us.” And I took that as a sign from my true love who died several years ago. It’s from the movie, “Romeo and Juliet.”
So as soon as I got home I purchased the song “A Time for Us,” by Andy Williams. I’ve been playing it non-stop for the last hour. It’s on repeat. It’s my song from my love. It’s Our Song.
“A Time for Us, some day there will be when chains are torn by courage borne of a love that is free. A time when dreams so long denied can flourish as we now unveil the love we must hide. A time for us, at last to see, a life worthwhile for you and me. And with our love through tears and thorns, we will endure as we pass surely through every storm. A time for us, some day there’ll be a new world. A world that’s shining hope for you and me. A time for us at last to see a life worthwhile for you and me. And with our love through tears and thorns, we will endure as we pass surely through every storm. A time for us, some day there’ll be a new world. A world that’s shining hope for you and me.”
I miss you, my love. You are my true love and you died. I will never love another for as long as I live here in this world or any world. I will remain a Virgin Angel until you and I are finally reunited.
Anyway I synched my fitbit and apple watch to my IPhone. I’m wearing the apple watch now. I’m using the multi-butterfly motion watch face. It’s pretty. I synched my fitbit already, but I’m still charging it. The battery was quite low.
My premium apple IPad in Rose Gold will arrive in the middle of July. I canceled Direct TV cable. My father is installing Verizon cable in my room today or tomorrow. He’s also putting the doorknob locks on my door.
I ordered more books which should arrive in a day or two. And playing cards.
Anyway, I kissed the photo of my love before I left for the store in Union Square. And now I’m going to kiss it again and tell him how much I love and miss him. And to let him know that my memories together didn’t fade in the last two years but became stronger. And I want him to know that my love for him didn’t fade or lessen. It grew deeper and stronger, as it does with every passing day.
I’m acquiring a PlayStation, Xbox, and WII next month when I get my IPAD.
I’m going to listen to this song all day long.
When you meet the love of your life, you never let go and you never move on even if the person dies. Because, as all of you can witness now, not even death will keep me from him.
Emmaruth Zerna Concepcion Mcentyre Merrick Susanno
Emma & Michael *Forever and Always*